This is what pain feels like.
Pain is feeling completely isolated when surrounded by a group of people who barely look up.
Pain is your courage to finally share a story to a room of people looking down at their cellphones, unable to so much as glance in your direction to hear about your vivid excitement or obvious distress.
Pain is not a single person in the room looking up to make eye contact with you, just solemn “mhms” and nods that are part of a performance- of how they should be reacting to make you feel “important”.
Pain is when someone finally looks you in the eye, you breathe a sigh of relief and gratitude because you are finally being heard, until you catch their thumbs moving automatically… not even needing sight to be imprisoned by a screen.
Pain is getting to the rising action and recognizing that not a single person is looking at you.
Pain is stopping mid-sentence in complete defeat, only to feel unworthy when no one realizes you’ve ended your attempt at conversation.
Pain is having this happen to you over and over again.
When was the last time you were truly WITH someone? When was the last time you turned your phone off so you could drink in every syllable of someone who trusts you to take an interest in their life?
Can you comprehend the utterly gut wrenching pain that shoots throughout someone when you look at your phone in the middle of a conversation?
Do you know how awful it feels to think you don’t matter because a text, a Facebook notification, a like is more important then the time someone is spending with you?
If you care about someone, prove it. Give them your undivided attention. Ask them questions, engage with them, ask them how their day is.
How often do we actually get asked how our days are that isn’t just a subtle formality?
How often does someone actually care about how our days went?
No one deserves to feel like this.
Put your phone down and show someone you care.
Put your phone down and save the relationships you haven’t already damaged.
Put your phone down and respect someone’s time with you.
Just put your damn phone down.