I Vow, 2017.

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I vow to worry less about others love for me and work harder to give that love to myself.

I vow to breathe through anxiety and put myself first.

I vow to say no without an explanation and feel comfortable doing so.

I vow to love fiercely in every way possible.

I vow to be vulnerable and real.

I vow to not let the fear of judgement control who I am.

I vow not to measure my success by the amount of likes on a picture or the amount of compliments in person.

I vow to keep some goals to myself and smash the hell out of them.

I vow to let go of could-bes and things that don’t work out.

I vow to truly take in the moments that make me carefree.

I vow to say what’s on my mind even if it isn’t what someone agrees with.

I vow to minimize the “stuff” I purchase and save it for the experiences I can live.

I vow to be open and genuine.

I vow to never numb myself to joy for fear of feeling pain later on.

I vow to say sorry less, to stop apologizing for who I am.

I vow to keep feeling every single emotion fullly and showing the world how it should be done.

I vow to call myself beautiful and believe it.

I vow to work through rejection in an effort to better myself.

I vow to have more courage to tell someone how I feel only for the sake of them knowing.

I vow to always find hope in any incredible amount of darkness I face.

I vow to accept that which I cannot change and move forward in the direction I’ve been pushed and pulled.

I vow, for one year, to give every ounce of love to myself so that others know how it should be done.

I vow, for one year, to be exactly who I am in the most kind and genuine way possible. 

I vow, for one year, to put my happiness utterly and completely before anyone else’s. 

I will always keep pushing, keep striving and keep growing.

I will never give up.

Love,

Anna Marie

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I Hope You Stay You.

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I hope, at the end of the day, you’re you.

I hope that the fire in your soul fuels your bravery and the criticism of society burns in the flames.

I hope you love so freely that it scares people away and attracts the deepest friendships of your life.

I hope you spike your hot cocoa to stay warm and breathe in the crisp winter air because the contrast is sacred.

I hope you fall in love so bad it hurts and he only stays if he let’s you be exactly who you are.

I hope you always stay exactly who you are.

Never a dimmed light-

never a watered down version-

always, 100% you.

I hope you eat french fries and skip the salad once in a while.

I hope you call yourself beautiful.

I hope you look in the mirror and accept yourself for your own beauty ideal.

I hope you talk to yourself like you would talk to your best friend.

I hope you practice kindness and stay genuine.

I hope you aren’t afraid to feel sadness and learn how to carry it with you.

I hope that you inspire yourself to be brave and believe in yourself to be fearless.

I hope you know that you can do anything.

Whatever you want, just do it.

I hope that you care for others in a way that makes them love you to the ends of the earth and fight like hell for what you believe in.

I hope your beliefs are never shoved down the throats of others.

I hope you listen to the silence for all that it says.

I hope you listen just to listen and not to respond.

I hope that you are missed by the ones you love and miss those you adore.

I hope you remember to smile.

I hope you aren’t too hard on yourself.

I hope that someone finds that light of yours and let’s it shine as bright as ever before.

I hope no one tries to take away your spirit.

I hope you never let them.

I hope you never apologize for what isn’t in your control.

I hope that you share yourself if only so you feel more confident in who you are.

I hope you never change.

I will always hope, at the end of the day, that you are you.

Stay you.

Love,

Anna Marie ❤

What are you doing?

I’m going to tell you something.

In this moment, no one cares about what you’re doing.

No one cares if you’re reading a book or watching Netflix.

No one is wondering if you’re deciding to put on make up or going to curl your hair.

No one wants to know if you went on a 6 mile run or walked ten steps to the bathroom.

These moments, every moment, is about you.

I’m giving you the freedom to understand that you are allowed to be selfish.

I’m also telling you that it is completely up to you what you do.

If you choose to watch Netflix while munching on the nearest snack food for 8 straight hours, is that going to get you to your “dream life” that you ponder every so often?

Is skipping class going to give you satisfaction?

We tell our friends, family and strangers our plans, our goals and our dreams.

I want to lose weight, I want to read 20 books this next year, I want to put my phone down more often.

In the end though, we find ourselves stuck in this place that is stagnant and comfortable.

We are laying in bed thinking how much EASIER it would be to just not do anything.

It sure would, wouldn’t it?

That’s the difference between creating a life full of pushing boundaries  or staying where you are. 

The need to be able to push yourself and motivate yourself every single day.

The hunger for success whether it be to eat more vegetables or smile at strangers.

The satisfaction upon completing a goal you’ve been working at for months.

No one cares what you are doing right now.

But these days that you stay stuck will turn into weeks and those weeks into months and those months into years until you realize that this is your life. 

We have all thought about where we want to be in a few years but it doesn’t just magically happen.

We have to strive and push ourselves every single day for it.

We create our lives by doing things that make us happy.

So what are you going to do today that will make you happy? Not comfortable, but happy.

Until Next Time,

Anna Marie

Traveling is my Religion

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Property of Anna Marie. Maya Bay, Thailand 2015.

If a stranger was to ask me what makes me happy, the first thing that would spit from my lips is the word “travel”. This is the moment I usually get a brief nod or non-committal “ah” because quite often, people aren’t sure what that means. Or on the opposite spectrum, they wish they could climb in my backpack and tag along.

 

It all started with the idea that college was the one and only time for me to travel. Every spare penny went towards a savings account that would be drained every couple months for another trip across the nation or world. When I graduated, it wasn’t enough- I realized I wasn’t done.

So  I decided that traveling is something that I want to continuously do throughout my life.  I went for it. I made budgets and started saving as much as possible. I did research on how to travel cheap and started talking to relatives and friends around the U.S. Since then, I have traveled with family, worked at a summer camp in a different state, jumped on board an all-inclusive trip,  went with a tour group to the other side of the world and more! It takes research, time, and saving.

I decided the “some day” for traveling is right now. I fell in love the all of the steps it takes to go on a trip. The planning, the coordination, the patience while counting down the hours until the plane leaves the runway… it makes your travels feel like a goal you just smashed your fist through.

Traveling is my religion. I commit to it because I know it will give me insanely wonderful rewards. From traveling, I learn culture, acceptance of others, and how to communicate with people who are not quite like myself. You never know what to expect and sometimes you fall in love with the place you are and sometimes it makes you appreciative of the home you have.

Property of Anna Marie. Phitsanulok, Thailand 2015.

Property of Anna Marie. Phitsanulok, Thailand 2015.

Here is how I can help you. Plan yourself a little vacation. It doesn’t have to cost you much; you can even plan a trip to a nearby city. Plan what you want to do there (concerts, shows, tourist attractions) and commit yourself! Look on websites like airbnb.com for cheap places to stay and Trip Advisor if you are not sure what to do there. Of course, if you need any help in planning your mini-vacation, let me know! I’d be happy to help!

Taking even just a little trip can refresh your mind and body and give you the excitement or relaxation you need to recharge yourself. You can’t put a price on the experience traveling gives you. So buckle up your budget and planning skills, and let’s see where your mind can take you!

Anna