We are all just FREAKING OUT.
I don’t know if I could ever accurately describe what it feels like to be a senior in college.
I know that the hours of good sleep I get averages about maybe 15 hours a week.
I know that even though my head hits the pillow at 10 p.m., I fight my thoughts until I’m so exhausted my brain hurts too much to fall asleep.
By the time I wake up, I feel more exhausted then I did the day before.
I’m a full-time student with a 15-credit load who is in class 4 hours a day, works 5-8 hours a day and does homework for 2 hours every night on top of applying for jobs who say you’re under-qualified and inexperienced.
Even though I’ve worked three jobs in the field with two internships and a college degree.
I don’t even know where I’m going to be living in a month and a half let alone where I’ll be working.
And who is going to take a chance on a girl who has clawed her way to even have a shot at her dreams.
As a senior, you realize that the 16 years of schooling you’ve done, every single thing you know about routine, every system you are familiar with– it’s all about to change.
You are told you have to take a job you won’t love because we have to start somewhere.
We are told that the real world is awful and ruthless.
We have spent the last four years loving our peers and freedom and now it’s time to leave.
I have talked with other seniors about the countless panic attacks and breakdowns we’ve had in the past months.
Because when you’re told your entire life where to go and what to do- it’s terrifying to be thrown into a pit of self-doubt where your entire life is judged on a piece of paper and a 10 minute interview.
And we have to keep our head above water and tell ourselves to enjoy this last semester because our days are numbered.
We are all terrified and panicking.
We are all screaming with excitement to start our lives.
We just can’t tell you how or when they will start.
Seniors, I heard something from an older man who has been in our shoes and it is so simple it hurts. Don’t rush.
Easier said then done when we have been drilled to soar above expectations but remember to breathe. The right opportunity will come when it needs to.
Keep your head up and your heart strong.